Watches the notebook every
time its on.. - m4w - 30
Date: 2010-01-18, 6:09AM EST
I know your on craigslist, but have no clue if you will ever look here. I sit here at nights thinking about you, what happened between us. The way we met, and our "first" kiss(es). You stole my heart completely with everything about you. In the end you told me you had to follow your mind over your heart. Then it ended as explosively as it began. I was wrong for my actions in the end, and tried to say goodbye....
We watched the notebook together one night, and I had not seen it yet. You said you loved the movie and told me not to get a crush on the lead actress. From there we constantly referred to the following:
"Noah: You're bored! You're bored and you know it! You wouldn't be here if there weren't something missing.
Allie: You arrogant son of a bitch!
Noah: Would you just stay with me?
Allie: Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we are already fighting.
Noah: Well that's what we do. We fight. You tell me when I'm being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are being a pain in the ass. Which you are 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a two second rebound rate and your back do doing the next pain in the ass thing.
Allie: So what.
Noah: So it's not going to be easy. It's going to be really hard. And we're going to have to work at this every day. But I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, every day."
I want you to know that I miss you deeply. I cannot stop thinking about you even though I know you have moved on and I have to stop. I thought I knew love when I was married, and then when my son was born. Then the marriage ended. Then I met you.... while trying to chase her. I had your number in my phone for weeks, and then one day it went off and we started to talk. The spring and summer were amazing... Taking your dogs for walks at antrim or just in the neighborhood. Going to eat at new restaurants just because. Playing Mario Kart with you in your new apartment and getting schooled horrifically every time- just as you said would happen. Going on random shopping trips after breakfast by your work. Just hanging out with you in your new place sitting next to each other on the couch enjoying each others touch for hours. I fell in love with everything about you.
You came back that night and we laid in each others arms for hours knowing we both had a busy day before us, and there I hope are still no regrets. You had said while out with your friend you told them a relationship has to have that "spark" and claimed it made you think of me, that you weren't getting that from your new relationship. Having you so near and yet so distantly far......
I know I still love you because I think not about the passion we had, but the times you put a smile on my face and when I could do the same to you. I miss your voice, your laugh, your eyes, smile, dogs, attitude, boldness, kindness, beauty, the smell of "eternity".... I can list countless more. I wish deeply you still feel the same even through all that has happened-
Noah: What do you want? What do you want?
Allie: It's not that simple.
Noah: What do you want? Goddamit, what do you want?
Allie: It's not that simple.
Noah: The best love is the kind that awakens the soul; that makes us reach for more, that plants the fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds. That's what I hope to give you forever.
Allie: I need to ask you something.
Noah: What is it sweetheart?
Allie: Do you think that our love can create miracles?
Noah: Yes I do. That's what brings you back to me each time.
Allie: Do you think our love can take us away together?
Noah: I think our love can do anything we want it to.
Allie: I love you.
Noah: I love you Allie.
Allie: Good night.
Noah: Good night. I'll be seeing you.
I love you. Your missed deeply and can't get you off my mind and cannot contact you.... I am so sorry for the end of everything between us and yearn deeply for you. I cannot watch the notebook again because it reminds me of the love I hold for you in my heart. I will never forget the movie and will think of you every time I see it advertised in the best ways. I love you, wanted to marry you, be your best friend, and give you the log cabin you joked and you wanted so much- but give you a view to the rockies out the windows....
I am not who I was at the end. I will never get the chance to have you trust me again, for you to take a risk and follow your heart over your mind like Allie does-
Allie: What happens if a car comes?
Noah: You die.
Noah: Just relax. Just trust. You need to learn how to trust.
I love you "CutiE"
Dude, did you just spend half of your night quoting dialogue from 'The Notebook' in a Craigslist missed connections posting??? Get a grip man!
* The Avett Brothers - 'Love Like The Movies' MP3