Looking back...

After the events of the week, losing a friend and in the process making new, hopefully life long friends...I have done a lot of reminiscing. Mostly about one relationship, one girl...probably the love of my life.

I must have listened to this Matt Nathanson 50 times. One lyric kept resonating with me over and over...like it was ripped right out of my mind:
"I wake reminded love
How I just gave up
And how you moved on, how you moved on"

I remember giving up...and being so offended that she moved on...but looking back, what was she supposed to do? Wait forever while I figure myself out? God knows she would have been waiting a long time. I have replayed it a thousand times and a thousand different ways in my head. Not sure if anyone like that will ever come into my life again, but if I am that lucky I know that I won't give up. What good is heartbreak if you don't learn from it?

Here is the song I was referring to...try and not to be SO dazzled by my video directing skills that you don't hear the words...they are beautiful ;-)



In the party love,
Some band's playing hallelujah
Hallelujah
In the corner love
All night girls drink wine and try to sing along
I made a mess of things
The stops and in betweens
They weigh me down
You got someone new singing you your songs now

Sooner surrender
Then watch the last wall collapse
And sooner surrender
And our love will count for everything

In my sweetest dreams
It's just you and me
And we break wide
I wake reminded love
How I just gave up
And how you moved on, how you moved on

I'm waiting for something
I've waited for now
For the rolling canyons of love
And i'm tongue tied
And you're coming alive, coming alive

Sooner surrender
Then watch the last wall collapse
And sooner surrender
And our love will count for everything

I'm sorry that you've gone
So sorry that you've gone
I'm sorry that you've gone
Love
I'm sorry that you've gone
So sorry that you've gone away
You're a little bit right
More than a little bit right
With my arms around you

Sooner surrender
Then watch the last wall collapse
And sooner surrender
And our love will count for everything

Sooner surrender
Than watch the last wall collapse I know
Sooner surrender and our love will count for everything
Our love will count for everything
And I miss when you were everything

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