Certain Songs

No, we didn't die.

we just never had a chance

to grow.

- w4m - 19

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Date: 2009-11-28, 2:16AM EST

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I don't know what to do anymore. I can't keep wishing, hoping, dreaming of the day you realize that I'm what you want. I think it's time I realize it's just not going to happen.
I fell in love with you. So fast. Trust me, that's not something I'm happy to admit..you got to me, unlike anyone else. I guess to you it was just a "summer fling," but to me..it was anything but that. I started off with the same mentality you did. I just wanted to have fun. Then YOU, not me, started the whole "relationship" conversations. Out of nowhere, we switched places. I was suddenly the one who wanted more and you were the one unable to give it. I feel like such an idiot for even thinking that your drunken words were true. I don't expect you to read this. and if you do, i sure as hell don't expect you to be able to understand this is for you. It seems random, out of the blue, right? Wrong. I've been silently holding everything in so that i don't "call you out," which is what led to us not seeing eachother in the first place. If you opened up a little and let yourself become just a little vulnerable, i wouldn't have to call you out. You hurt me. You don't even seem to notice you did. As much as it hurts, I have to let go and end this back-and-forth thing we have going on. You either love someone, or you don't. Clearly, you do not. Goodbye.

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Nineteen...you're only 19 for God's sakes, you don't need a boyfriend.


* The Long Blondes - 'Once And Never Again' MP3